This is my very first blog ever, so I'm not sure how to do this, but I think I will get the hang of it soon =P
Today began so very well (sarcasm). I hardly slept last night and when my alarm rang at 6:30, I just wanted to go back to bed. I eventually got up and took a shower, it was so warm that I nearly fell asleep =). When I had gotten dressed, I went downstairs to have breakfast, but my mum wasn't there, so I just made a sandwich and ate it, but I felt really anxious afterwards. When I had brushed my teeth and packed my bag, I finally left for school. I sat outside the class about 35 minutes before the lesson began and the lights were out. When the janitor came in, he turned on the lights and said that I just sat there quiet in the dark. When he left he turned them off again and smiled. I saw it through a mirror and sort of smiled back. I don't even remember what it felt like to actually smile. Five minutes later my friend came and she turned on the lights -.- I love her, but sometimes she's so freaking annoying. She has this urge to always be right and she thinks she's better than me. I do my best in some things and she complains that I don't do something right. She is obsessed with others and wouldn't last two seconds alone. Anyway, she had forgotten (or didn't dare show it to her parent) to take a signature to the English test, she got a 6 (I got a 10 =)) and she was about to fake it, but the teacher came, and she pretended she was looking through her bag. The teacher went to the classroom, and left the door open and my friend was about to pull out the test, when I told her that he would be back and so she went to the bathroom to do it. The teacher did come back to put his coat on the coat rack, then he went back inside but didn't shut the door properly. When my friend came back she showed me the faked signature and she had failed her first try so she had messed it up. She was so not going to get away with it. Unfortunately, she did. What am I saying, that's horrible and so mean. I can't talk crap about my friends. Anyway, on the English lesson, we got to continue writing our stories of suspense =). I finished mine and I was to only one. Some girls hadn't even begun with theirs. After that we had reading. I read a house of night novel and studied for biology at the same time. Next lesson was a biology test. I knew most of the answers, but I won't get a 10, probably a 7 =/. Then we had math. I had forgotten to do my homework and did it during the break. We had the lesson in the hallway because all classrooms were full =). Then we had lunch. I never eat at school, ever, I hate the school food, and I always skip lunch on weekdays to lose weight. I sat at the table with my three friends, they all ate and I drank only one glass of water. Two teachers walked past me and both looked at me with a worried look on their face. You'd think they would be used to it by now, I haven't eaten in school for one and a half year! I have turned into a real geek now. We have a test on Thursday next week, and I already want to start studying =P. After that we had drama. I hate it. I am very shy, so the drama lessons are actually scary for me. We had to dance! I suck at dancing. I hate it, because I suck at it! Finally, when I refused to dance solo in front of everyone, the teacher told me (and two others girls who also refused to do it) to go home. The teacher would talk to us on Monday about it. Can't wait. When I got home, I went to my room, but my dad came and told me to come downstairs. There had been an earthquake in Japan, and a massive tsunami =O =(
I spent the entire afternoon researching information about the consequences from the quake. About 300 people had been found lying dead on a beach =( and the tsunami continued until it hit Hawaii, Alaska and California. Why does things like this happen in this world. I wanted to take my own life this afternoon. If those people in Japan can't live their lives without being killed by a tsunami, then why should any of us live at all. What's the point of this life, I don't get it. Your mum gives birth to you, you live at home and go to school until you are eight-teen. You move away and start working. You make mistakes and learn new things. You grow old and lose your memory. You die. Nobody gets out of this life alive. I don't see the point in living. There's nothing more important in life than to be who you really are. It's all that matters!
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